I’m just another Pluto survivor. But, sometimes I ask to
myself: What will be next? The “something is about to change soon, something
will end” feeling hasn’t stopped yet. Pluto in Capricorn just reached my ascendant
last year. I feel like just my guts exploded and from my insides an Alien
popped out.
Plutonian energy isn’t strange to me, I was born with an
Aries Sun opposed Pluto Libra. I have seen people come and go into my life since
I was a Kid. So many people, I guess. My life has the plutonian vibe and it’s
ok, at least it’s ok now. Walking in the shadows, looking for a warm hug from a
deceased friend, sleeping with ghost was so normal to me, like for some people
it’s having a cup of coffee and chatting with an old friend.
I knew it from the very beginning Pluto in my ascendant will
make my life starts from scratch, I wasn’t sure if I was ready or not. I just knew
it. Before Pluto I used to have a little
more of everything, but I wasn’t happy then, not sure if I am now. Back then my
life was under control, now is just Today, tomorrow will be another day!
My best friend passed away the day Pluto reached my
ascendant for last time, I was prepared for saying good bye to my old friend
but not for saying good bye to my old me.
He and I were close, the both of us were plutonians, He was
Aries Sun in the 8th house, Mars/Pluto/Uranus in the first and he
was sick. We just talked a lot of music, he was the trash metal speed type of
guy and I was the Smiths morbid one. So,
talking about death wasn’t rare as a topic. “One day soon won’t be here anymore
but you will be fine, people don’t die, don’t fade away so easily, it’s up to
you” few days after a seizure he was totally disable, he fought for months, I
was with him the most all the time, Christmas, New year’s day even Valentines
was with him. He couldn’t speak, I held his hands, I cried for hours because I
remembered all the things he said and done to me, specially how sweet he was
when I was bitter and bitchy.
He used to say me: “Now you hate me, but you know I love you
to death or maybe beyond”. Love me
to death. How Plutonian!! He´s gone now. I missed him some days a little more than
others. He left me on my own and I survived. Because after all, there´s
a life after Pluto, is not the type of life as you know, but it’s a life. After
Pluto everyday could be the last and you are aware of it. After Pluto you’re
not afraid of dying, because there´s no death but beginnings. There is a Life
after Pluto, maybe now I´m only a newborn to this life, but I know this life
can be better than the one I left behind.
So after Pluto came in to your life, there’s only one thing
you can do: Embrace it and move on!!
